Oh, how you were so wise, Omma.
We were sitting at the kitchen table at our house in Olathe. 17582 West 112th St. I watched my mom as she worked her way around her kitchen. Making dinner and mixing cookies for my brother while happily singing to herself. I was a teenager. 16 years old. I told my mom that I didn't want to have kids right away and that I wanted to be a career woman. She turned to me and said you know you might change your mind. I scoffed because I knew what I was talking about and no one could change my mind, not even my mother. Well, I've been in the career world and I have to say it's not all that I thought it would be. I guess I had some vision where the thrill of being a career woman would be enough. The thrill is gone, baby. Way gone. Losing someone close to you make you realize so many things. As I work through all these feelings I'm realizing there are so many other things I'd rather be focusing on right now. Life is just too damn short to wait. Luckily, my husband is right there to back me up. I love you, honey. We're starting to make decisions that will change out lives. We're so excited! Though I'm no where near the domestic goddess my mother was, I've decided to follow in her foot steps and to teach myself. So many projects, so little time. I finally feel like I know what to do now.
that's a beautiful post..congrats on making big decisions..life is too short..
Posted by: Flav | June 14, 2006 at 06:20
what a uplifting post. ummahs understand their ddhals better than our teenaged selves knew ourselves, i've learned as well... your tone here sounds so full of hope and love. sending lots of good thoughts your (and your husband's) way, aimee~~
Posted by: Nancy | June 14, 2006 at 07:04
I find that only as I grow older, can I begin to hear the truth of my mother's accented speech. Indeed, ommas are wise..
Posted by: slim | June 15, 2006 at 07:31
A turning point indeed! Your lives will never be the same again...
Posted by: antipodeesse | June 16, 2006 at 13:36
I love moments of clarity like that. Heartwarming that you have a husband who supports you.
Posted by: Serena | June 16, 2006 at 15:25
Lovely post. I too have been going through a lot of the same thoughts you've shared and I know how you feel...that loss makes you realize just how precious life is and how it can be wasted on the insignificant. Best wishes to you in your pursuit of a meaningful life!
Posted by: Bernadette | June 17, 2006 at 07:55
Touching post. And one I agree with wholeheartedly.
Posted by: Buffy | June 18, 2006 at 10:13
Nice post. Ultra clarity is rare so go for it.
Posted by: JennC | June 26, 2006 at 14:02