I want to remember the end of my pregnancy as being a wonderful time. That's going to be really hard since I'm clocking in less than 4 hours of sleep a night, my feet look like hairless hobbit feet (and they hurt from the excessive swelling) and I've been reduced down to wearing my husband's shoes if I want to leave the apt. It feels like my belly button might rip open any second now. And I've been feeling rather blue lately, the tears come and go about as often as I am running off to the toilet to take those phantom pees. But all these discomforts magically disappear when I feel our little guy give me a nudge to say "hey, I'm here...". I rub his little bottom, the shape of his little bum is unmistakable when he's pushing up with his legs. I rub his back and soothe away his frequent hiccups he's had this week. I will miss feeling him grow inside of me. This feeling that is hard to put to words, what it feels like to have life growing from me. I suddenly feel not so alone in this world... not so aware of my mortality.
I sit here cradling my stomach and humming made up love songs to my son-to-be. I want to remember moments like this in the years to come. The moments before the arrival. Who knows when I'll have time to actually update my blog, email or watch that list of movies I just posted. Or even really sleep. Does it all really matter considering what is about to happen?
Would I change anything if I could? No way. My life is taking me in the direction it's supposed to go. I am ready to live it. Six more days... This has been the longest week of my life.
That was just beautiful. :o)
Posted by: Jenny Rebecca | March 14, 2007 at 17:33
Oh my! Reading your post, it's reminded me of many feelings I had in my last few days before our daughter arrived, feelings that I've already forgotten about. You will do great! Lots will change once the little guy arrives, but you will see, everything will fall into place the way it should.
Posted by: JFX | March 14, 2007 at 17:42
such a sweet post!
Posted by: frecklegirl jess | March 14, 2007 at 18:00
I know you have had plenty of people provide you with well wishes about the upcoming birth of your baby, but here is one more....
I truly hope you enjoy every single second of what is and will happen to you and your husband as you bring this wonderful life into the world. You guys are extremely lucky-in many many ways. Bless you.
-Danielle
Posted by: ldbaldwin | March 14, 2007 at 18:38
that was a lovely post there, aimee. awwww. :)
and oh my gosh, the arrival of baby flare is less than a week away! sooooo exciting! eeek!!
Posted by: Sandra | March 14, 2007 at 21:26
Dearest, I'm so excited, I can barely wait to hear that the baby has arrived... But don't forget that you and Julien have one more mission before the birth...
PS: Your feet are gorgeous.
Posted by: frog with a blog | March 14, 2007 at 23:33
Katy is excitedly waiting...
and amazingly, it is better when you can cuddle them...
hugs
Mary Anne
Posted by: Mary Anne | March 14, 2007 at 23:39
And before you know it? You'll have a 5 year old. I can't believe my baby will be 5 on the 20th.
Posted by: Scoutj | March 15, 2007 at 04:55
you know what? this has probably been the longest week I had in years too!
Posted by: Irene | March 15, 2007 at 10:31
Sweet memories... and now my son will be 8 in 2 weeks...
Posted by: Jennifer | March 15, 2007 at 11:48
Six more days must seem like forever right now, but I promise that you will forget about any discomforts as soon as you lay your eyes on your little baby.
Posted by: Emma | March 15, 2007 at 14:13