Yeah, lots of breast talk going on right now on my blog. Well, that pretty much is my main thought after Maximilien and my husband. And this is my blog, so I can talk about whatever I want. :) It is so cool that so many of you are so willing to discuss. So here's a little ditty I've been dealing over the last week...
I've noticed sudden change in my son's behavior before bed. Meaning that he cries hysterically and tries to eat his hands incessantly. You guessed it, he's hungry. I've been suspecting something going on with my breasts since we got back from the US early June. My milk supply wasn't as abundant as it had been since Max's birth but I chalked that up to my body regulating itself and making the amount of milk that Max needed. But then something strange started happening, my left breast wasn't producing as much milk as my right. It became so obvious that my right breast was bigger than my left. Talk about weird when I'd look at myself in the mirror. I completely stopped having a let down on my left side. It's like my left breast went back to being itself like it was before I became pregnant.
So essentially since July, Max has been living off one boob. :)
Weight issues came up at his three month check up. He gained nearly half of what he gained the month before. It was even less the next month and that was when we started having the poop issues. And this last month he only gained 380g when on average he should be gaining 500g a month, according to Max's pediatrician and what I read on Kelly Mom (great website, btw). But he kept shooting up in height and that reassured me and the doctor that all was well. Max was happy and sleeping well up until about three days ago.
I've noticed when he nurses he pulls off almost every time and cries from frustration. I have to keep nudging him to take the breast again. Hoping that I'd have a let down to satisfy him. After two days of this I sent Julien out for formula last night because I wasn't going to have a starving baby and he needed sleep.
For the last two days I've breast fed him and given him 80cl of formula and it seems to be enough for him. He pulls off from the bottle happy and ready to go to bed.
But this worries me about my milk supply. I've read the La Leche League website about low milk supply and it seems like they don't like to say that a mother has low milk supply unless it's the final straw. They talk about doing breast compressions (tried it), working on latch (done that), nursing more which is hard because when nothing comes out Max doesn't want to nurse so that doesn't work and pumping more. So with the latter, I called my doctor and got a prescription for a hospital grade electric pump and it was delivered to my apartment today. I'm going to go pump before bed tonight and then set my alarm and pump again in the middle of the night to see what I can get.
I may sound a little desperate because I do feel a little bit desperate. And disappointed. I don't understand what is happening to my body but I sense something has changed recently. I know it's okay to let Max have formula but it goes against my plan to breast feed him because for me I feel like that is what is best for my baby.
Even Max knows the difference. He sort of rejects the bottle of formula the first few times we try to give it to him but then he gives in. Maybe it's my imagination but I believe he knows the difference. But it satisfies him enough at night for him to go to sleep and that's what is important right now.
So my play list of songs tonight include some Beatles, Frou Frou and a the woosh woosh from the breast pump. I'm off to make this work...
Any advice or experience with this that you'd like to share, I'd love to hear it. I'm still waiting for someone from the LLL to write me back. Kinda bummed that no one's written me back yet.
Also, has anyone given their 5 month old baby soy milk? Just curious...