Playing with Maximilien today I felt an overwhelming wave of joy and happiness burst from my heart and like a wave it flowed out of my arms, legs, chest and engulfed Max and I. And in this moment, I thought of my mother and how this is how it must of felt for her playing with us, raising us, being our Omma. I felt the tears welling up and I held Max close and he wrapped his little arms around my neck. The tears disappeared. He smiled and off he went. I sat watching him and thinking of my mother. Missing her. Wishing she could be here with my right now.
A day does not go by that I do not think about Omma. Say her name, call out to her or even talk to her. Most of my everyday life reminds me of my mother. The baking I do at the tea house. My daily routines with Max. And now my brother is here living with us for a year and just seeing him reminds me so much of her.
I have a photo of Omma and I on the bookshelf at the tea house and that brings me comfort when I suddenly feel lost in thought. But still... it is all very hard to handle. And there will never be enough passage of time to dull the pain of these emotions of loss and love.
wishing i could hug you. glad you can hold max and know you are passing on your and her love to him.
Posted by: mamie | August 29, 2008 at 06:15
This was so touching and brought tears to my eyes. I often feel the same since my mother passed.
Posted by: Elaine | August 29, 2008 at 08:04
When I met William the other day, I thought instantly how much it must mean to you to have him staying with you during this next year, to have one of your own family here in France with you. And he's absolutely delightful! I said to Georges that now we've met more than half your family. I just haven't met your sisters yet.
Kudos to you and Julien for the wonderful work on the tea shop -- the new green paint is so fresh and calming at the same time, and the kitchen looks so much easier to work in. Thanks for the delicious cookies, too! See you soon.
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Posted by: Bob | August 30, 2008 at 19:11
That must be so great for you, to have your brother with you for a year!! Lovely place to have your mums photo..and that it brings great comfort to you!!!
The paintwork is great, Well done :-)
Posted by: anne | August 31, 2008 at 18:29
Hi Aimée,
I can really feel for you.The ties between women in the same family are incredibly strong.
My Mom is healthy & active, but our greatest loss was that of Dad. We lost him to a cancer almost 10 years ago. And I can tell you that hardly a day goes by without some thought towards him.
I honestly know where you are coming from...Hugs to you xxxxx
See you tomorrow with a merry group of ladies, including Leesa .
Posted by: barbara | September 01, 2008 at 16:48
Wow, Aimée, all the changes in the teahouse look incredible! I can't wait for the opportunity to see them in person -- although I imagine it may take me a while to get out there!
This was an amazingly touching post... Your words always get me right here, Aimée -- you have no idea! You have such a straightforward and beautiful way of expressing yourself and your feelings.
Been having some tough times with Emma, but I'm trying to hang in there best I can... Breastfeeding seems to be coming along -- she has gained more than a kilo in a month! at the PMI today they jokingly said we might have to put her on a diet -- but she's been struggling with what I believe is colic and many tummy pains. I just hope it's nothing I'm eating! I've got to figure it out...
Thinking of you -- hope to see you soon! XO
Posted by: Alice | September 04, 2008 at 22:24
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à bientôt
frank
Posted by: idée cadeau | September 16, 2008 at 01:45